Me 'n' My Daddy

A long, long time ago when I was...oh, gosh...6 or 7 yrs old I always had such a hard time falling asleep. Especially after the first time I discovered that after all the kids were "asleep" my parents would stay up and watch M*A*S*H, but not only that! They would also go to Parker's (small food joint here in town) and get shakes!

I discovered this all by accident, I was innocently laying there in bed waiting for sleep to come, trying to be a good kid and not get yelled at to get in bed and go to sleep...again, when I heard the front door close and heard the car leave.

I didn't think both my parents would just leave us all alone so I lay there thinking and pondering why one of them would leave, but that soon lead somehow to being sure they had both left and were never to return. Maybe that day we had all really pushed our limits or something...I don't know. Soon I had to venture downstairs to see if we were indeed left all alone.

As I crept down the stairs I could hear the T.V. and could see light shining from the front room. I knew one of them was there. After all, they wouldn't leave the T.V. and the lights in the room on wasting all that electricity! So I went to the bathroom...yeah right, like I needed to. It was the only way I could come out into the open to see who was still there without getting into trouble for not being in bed.

It was my dad. Since I have four brothers I didn't get too much one-on-one time with dad (who obviously would bond more easily with my bros, especially since he had only one sister and half a dozen or so brothers).

After potty break I went into the front room rubbing my eyes to make it obvious that I had just woke up. He asked what I was doing up I told him had to go to the bathroom, then promptly asked where mom went. He asked how I knew she left and what did it matter to me? I don't know how else it went but somehow I got out of him she went to get shakes at Parker's and I ended up on his lap waiting for mom to get back with "their" shakes, sure was a good midnight snack...hehe.

I liked the coolness of being able to eat shakes with my mom and dad just me 'n' them but the thing I liked the very best was being able to sit on my dad's lap leaning back against him to rest my head on his shoulder and watching T.V. with him. Just him and me... I don't recall how many times I got away with this but it seems it was a good handful of times anyway. I don't know if he even remembers it but I do, and always will.

When I think about my dad this is the memory that enters my head every time. I will cherish watching M*A*S*H with him forever. I love my daddy and am so glad he is my daddy!

Still Infertile...

Since I originally posted I've figured out that indeed I did ovulate the spotting I thought to be aunt flo (and took clomid) was from ovulating. :) Very happy! And the clomid did cause the corpus luteum to quit producing progesterone which causes temp drop. And the clomid didn't make me ovulate because my body just wasn't able to get ready that soon after ovulating. Pretty cool.
Well, well, well...
I thought I had ovulated. According to Fertility Friend (I chart my BBT there) I had. But then I took the clomid and I thought I had messed the charting up and that's why the temp drop...but no. According to blood test ordered by my OB there was no ovulation so I guess I'm still infertile.
Next thing is to get a real Aunt Flo to visit by taking something (usually takes a few different things to have it work). A road I am very familiar with...and I have to tell you...I am scared to death that once again all the tests and everything will come back "normal" and dr will say, "I don't know what else I can do. Good luck." And I will be right back where I was not too long ago which is infertile and little hope of ever conceiving.
What a bummer...
To be perfectly honest though not all hope is lost. I mean my insulin is normal (hasn't been for who knows how many years) which does affect all my other hormones. It could just be a matter of time before my body gets them all straightened out and working the way they should.
Who knows....

Family Reunion

Over the weekend Allen and I went to a family reunion...always interesting.
On Friday we helped Al's little bro and wife move to Parawan. Finally got to camp around dinner time. Then not too long after dinner time we noticed Skunk had a real medical problem. He has had the problem before but it has always gone away and never got that bad. So we then decided we better get him to a vet and get some antibiotics. We've already had a dog die due to an infection, it was internal so we had no idea she had it but it was devastating none the less.
Anywho, we drove 30 min to the nearest town...no vets available. Long story short we ended up in Orem until 1:00 am getting our little Skunk checked out and meds. We decided we were going to sleep in our own bed even if just for a few hours before heading back to the reunion. Happy to report Skunk is doing very well!
I would have pictures of everybody digging and then panning the dirt for gold but when we came home for the night with Skunk we took the Expedition back down instead of the truck and the camera...it was forgotten in the truck...grrr!!!
It was a lot of fun. You would think after 10 yrs of marriage I would know Allen's family or at least the majority. Nope. I didn't know very many of them at all.
Oh well, we are glad to be home and I'm pretty sure the dogs are too. They enjoyed themselves but they were all wanting to come home too. While we were packing up they wouldn't let us out of their sight. For their first camping trip they did really well.

Our New Nephew

Saturday Allen and I got a new nephew... this is Aiden. He is super cute!

Poor kid...too big...had to come into this world with someone pushing on his head and a different person tuggin' on his body. He was stuck! Had two days worth of labor to prove it.

Look at this cute new mommy!

And what a cute happy little family!

Not to mention the proud and excited older brother!Look at Allen holding a cute little newborn...only a few hours old at this time.

He's gonna be such a cute daddy!!! I just love this man!!!I just love baby's fingers and toes!! So stinkin' CUTE!!!

Weird thing is...this is the first time that I have went to see a new baby and not felt jealous. I really think it may be my turn soon. Maybe through adoption, maybe biologically (I don't really care) but I really feel it's my turn soon. :)

Forgot How Gorgeous the Canyon Is

Over Memorial Day weekend Allen wanted to go check out the trail that his 4x4 club was planning on running on Memorial Day. I didn't really want to go but I figured if he did anything not so bright and got stuck it would be better if there was two of us. It was drizzly that day on and off. Ever since they have started charging to go up the canyon I don't go much because I don't like to pay to enjoy what God gave us. Really a pet peeve of mine.

S0 we went up to Mineral Basin...parts of the road only one vehicle fits. That was not what I call fun. I'm very afraid of heights and when the side of the truck I'm sittin in is basically hanging over a cliff it's panic time. Luckily most people who go up there understand what a problem this can be and are willing to back up to make room.

In the end though it is worth it because it is so green, cool and quiet...did I mention it's quiet? All the hussle and bussle of city life really wears on ya (especially living on a very busy corner). But it's so gradual that it's hardly noticeable until you escape, even if just for a few hours. With the run off right now the streams are like booming rivers so everywhere you go you can hear the water...so relaxing...love it. I was kind of disappointed though because I didn't see any wild life...still enjoyed the peace and quiet though.

When I was in high school and there after (til I got hitched) I used to drive the canyon. There was always a spot somewhere that seemed to beckon me. I would park then soon I would be out of the car and into nature I would disappear....the good ol' days. I don't know if it's just me or if it's nature. But in these alone times with nothing but nature around me (sound of passing cars blocked by the sound of the river, or stream if the end of summer) I always, always feel peaceful. Like everything is okay, troubles disappear and everything is just okay. I look around and every living thing around me feels like it's God's way of saying, "I love you". Sounds cheesy I know but...that's just me.

One day I'm going to get out of the city for good. I'm going to move far away from traffic and confusion. I'm going to be able to look out my back (or front or side) windows and see trees, grass, animals, a stream...anything but asphalt, buildings and cars. I can't wait!!!

I almost forgot, Allen got a new Jeep. Obviously not NEW, but new to him. It was completely free except the gas to go get it. Although it is more of a project than originally thought. He was told it was a problem with the starter but nay...the engine is seized. That's okay though, he has a newly rebuilt engine he can put in it. He's so excited about having a project he can put together and modify souly for the purpose of going on trails with his 4x4 Club. I have to admit...I'm pretty excited too. :)

Fresh Veggies Comin' Right Up

I think it was Monday when we were out admiring our garden when we notices that some of them thar radishes were ripe and ready to be picked. We were sooo excited!!Our radishes made the store bought taste weak and watered down, they were so good! Al thought I was a real nut-job having him "pose" with some radishes. :) I can't wait for the rest of the veges to be ripe and pickable. After trying the couple of radishes we decided if we wanted carrots to eat we'd better thin them out and give them some room to grow. Thanks to Shilo (Sam's wife) we have corn, carrots, beets, cantaloupe, watermelon, peas, and squash growing. This year we decided that the garden is probably too big for just the two of us and Shilo was wanting a garden so she started them and got them growing. Then a couple weeks ago transplanted them into the garden. Love that chickie-poo, Sam done good when he married her.

So the excitement is escalating everyday! And the tomatoes...they all have flowers and soon will have little green ta-maters growing!!! CAN'T WAIT! Those are my favorite! And the plants smell so good!

Patience...Where Can I Get Some?

"Patience is a virtue" my mom used to tell me.

I have a REALLY big problem with being patient!!! It's no secret, just ask Allen. Lol
Let me tell ya a little story. In the weeks I have been taking DCI at one point I decided to start charting my BBT. Well, that chart showed that I did in fact ovulate. Long story made short I messed things up. I did it MY way, instead of the right way. NOW I've added weeks (not counting the months it will take for the planets to align just right) on to the time I'll be waiting to actually see if my body really will do an entire cycle. If it does...then Al and I can hopefully create a mini-me (actually I'd prefer a mini-Al...or two) I am sooo irritated with myself!! Grrr!! If I had only listen to my mom and learned to be patient!
This poem came to mind today as I was doing yard work and kicking myself in the caboose.

My Father’s way may twist and turn.
My heart may throb and ache.
But in my soul I’m glad I know
He makes no mistake.

My cherished plans may go astray.
My hopes may fade away.
But still I’ll trust my Lord to lead
For He does know the way.

Tho night be dark and it may seem
That day will never break;
I’ll pin my faith, my all in Him,
He makes no mistake.

There’s so much I cannot see,
My eyesight far too dim;
But come what may, I’ll simply trust
And leave it all to Him.

For by and by the mist will lift
And plain it all He’ll make
Through all the way, tho dark to me,
He made not one mistake.

A. M. Overton (1932)

When am I going to find the faith I know I should have? If I had more faith I think it would make the waiting game easier to endure. *sigh* I mean, I know that He doesn't make mistakes and things go the way they do because it is the best way. Right now though with the possibility being sooo close I can taste it...everyday seems like a lifetime!!! Then brainiac me goes and prolongs the wait...smart...real smart.

Hey if anyone out there has a time machine that they would lend out that would be great! I don't want to change anything in the future I just want to check it out...see what happens...ya know? Ahh, if it were just that simple.

Happy B-day My Knight in Shining Armor!

I can't believe my sweetheart is 35!!! And every year he gets better and better! I just love this guy!!! I thank Heavenly Father everyday for blessing me with such an awesome husband. Not that he's perfect...but a lot closer than I am. I think I married up. He's got such a strong testimony, he's the smartest guy I know, and he loves me unconditionally. What a man!!!
I just worry...are we too old be trying to get pregnant and barely start a family? If we got really lucky and he gets me knocked up before Aug., which he's been threatin' to do for a decade, the baby could be born before his 36th b-day but still that would make him over 50 when the kid graduates. Ahhh! Half way to the grave! Thinking about this I'm seriously wondering if we should just not worry about it and just be happy with our fur-babies...hmmm.
But at the same time I have to look at it this way too. Right now would be a perfect time because our Mona Vie business is starting to take off and if we work really hard within the next year Allen could be a stay home dad and be there for a lot of the pregnancy...that would make the late start worth it. I can't even imagine if my dad would've been able to be a stay home dad. That would've been so awesome!!!
So, being able to provide the kind of relationship with our children that would be possible with both of us always around to provide support in whatever they do...Okay, I do think it would be okay to start a family now. Especially drinking Mona Vie because the Resveratrol in it stops the aging process (according to Dr. Oz and Dr Schauss) so maybe we would be able to live longer happier more active lives with them. Physically I do actually feel younger now and more energetic than I did like 5 yrs ago. Hadn't thought about it until now. Okay, we'll stay the course of trying to concieve.
Wow! That was quite a venting session. I do worry though about being past our prime baby-making years...but I guess that's only according to "Utah standards" hehehe. Anywhere else in the world we're still too young to be settlin' down and building a family.
Sorry about all that but feels good to let it out. :) Been stewin' on it since last night when I realized it was Allen's birthday today.

Insulin Level Down!!!

So as some know I went and asked a doc to prescribe an insulin blood test. Well, I'm am happy to say that my insulin (after 5 weeks of d-chiro-inositol) has dropped from 43.7 to 10.5!!! YAY!!! Still not low enough but I do have a back-up plan. hehehe. I guess the "acceptable range" is 6 to 25. The closer I can get it to 6 the better so...on to plan B. Still no aunt flo though...hmmm. Oh well, not gonna worry about that I guess until I can get my insulin down a few more points then EVERYTHING will be "normal". Yeah--if there is a normal

Catching Up

I had the best day yesterday!!! I got to catch up with an old friend. Y'all probably know him, it was Rocky. When I answered the door and there he was, he told me I looked the same (bless his heart, he ignored the 100+ lbs I've put on) he made me a bit jealous, he's been going to the gym and working out. Man he's a muscley dude now! In school he was really skinny but he's bulked up and he looks so good! I hadn't seen him for...well...at least 6 or 7 years. We never did get it figured out for sure.
It's amazing to me how things can change so much but yet be so the same.
At first glance he looked so different, but to look at him...he was exactly the same, just a LOT buffer. I can't explain it, it was just so weird! We went to lunch with my mom, to Olive Garden (my fave). She was really excited to see him again too. I had so much fun reminiscing about school days with him. Every memory from Jr High through High School involves him. He said that exact thing while we were driving around. It made me feel so old when we were trying to figure out the last time we saw each other! I still feel like I'm 20 or 21, but DANG I've been out of school for 13 years! That's as many years as I went to school.
I really better get on this baby makin' stuff...my times runnin' out. :) Not really, I know. I still have another decade...me thinks. Everything in the Lord's time.