Our New Caseworker

Yesterday it hit me how frustrated I am with the whole waiting to be able to adopt. I hadn't really thought about it until visiting with our new caseworker. She asked us how long we have been approved and how many caseworkers we have had. She apologized a million times that we've had so many, it was pretty comical.
I really like her, she had a confident aura about her. It probably has to do with the fact that she is done with school and is settled in life. All of our other caseworkers have been pretty young and in school still or a newlywed or whatever. Just not settled, not quite where they want to be in life. But Stephanie, I think, is going to be great. I really hope she is our caseworker when we are finally chosen...if we ever get chosen. *sigh*
I know there are families that wait way longer than 1 1/2 yrs but for me longer than a couple weeks is a long time to be waiting for anything. lol I don't think it would seem so bad if we hadn't had our hopes up about getting a baby in June or July then...then the mom decided to choose abortion instead of adoption. I still don't and will never understand why, but I guess that's why we are all here to be tested and tried. I know I've failed quite a few trials (a lot of them having to do with patients, lol) in my life most of which only I and the Lord are aware of so who am I to judge her? My heart still aches for her because I don't think there is anyway that she doesn't regret it every day and want to turn back the hands of time to take it back, have it undone so she can choose differently.
Oh, and come to find out yesterday during our visit, our blog hasn't been linked to our profile! Grrr! The only reason I started blogging was to give them a place that they could come to get to know us better. No worries though, we've got that straightened out. Now it is completely obvious where to find our blog. Maybe that will help speed up the process...or it might slow it down if we (or really I since I do the blogging) are psycho or weird and we don't even know it. I don't know, I guess there is just no tellin'. lol

The New Year

It's been such a long time...the end of last year really took the wind outa my sails. Guess that's why I haven't posted for so long.
Anywho...the good news is it's the new year now. It seems that the new year is the easiest place to start fresh on things. I've never understood this because every morning we wake up to a new day so why not start fresh then...hmmm.
Anyway, starting fresh this year (still haven't done it completely yet) is going to include but is not limited to: 1. getting healthier, not necessarily losing weight, although I'm sure that will be a by-product of getting healthier 2. being a support and strength to Allen by showing and telling him how I feel about him and let him know how much respect I have for him 3. get better organized, I don't know what happened there, I used to be so organized but now...well, it's another story 4. shrink the gap between the Lord's will and my own. These so often, especially lately, are so far apart I lose track of the Lord's will. It seems to disappear over the horizon. This is not good because his will is unchanging and steadfast so that means only one thing...yup, you got it, it's me moving farther from Him. So we are changing that this year. 5. Get knocked up. I know I don't have any control over this one but the way I see it, if I take care of the other 4 things this one might take care of itself, or someone who can control it will let it happen.
I guess we'll see. Hopefully I'll not be absent so long again.
Hope you all had a happy and joyous Christmas, and I wish you a happy new year! Little late I know...sorry.